Saturday, October 14, 2017

Living in My Broken Heart

You will lose someone you can't live without, and your heart will be badly broken.
And the bad news is that you never completely get over the loss of your beloved.
But this is also the good news. They live forever in your 
broken heart that doesn't seal back up.

-Anne Lamott

Today was the second AFSP Out of the Darkness Walk that I've attended this year. A few weeks ago I attended an event in San Francisco, California, and served as a volunteer. Today, I attended an event in Oakley, California, and I was there as a participant.

I wore red beads because I have lost a love to suicide.

I wore gold beads because I lost my mother to suicide.

I wore green beads because of my personal struggle with suicide.

I wore teal beads because I have friends who have attempted suicide.

But today, the most important beads I wore, were blue.

I support suicide awareness and I believe that one day, we will be better at preventing these tragic losses.

I support suicide awareness and prevention because of John, and my mother, and myself, and my friends, and all of the other people who have lost the ones they love to suicide, and all the other people who have attempted suicide, and all the people who have lost their lives.

I know that the best way for me to keep the people I love alive is to honor them, every day, by giving everything I can to this important cause.

They remain forever in my heart, broken as it may be. And in the end, that is very good news.