Wednesday, May 18, 2022

Andrew Martinez



Luis Andrew Martinez (Andrew Martinez) was an activist who was known at the University of California, Berkeley as the Naked Guy.

In September 1992, his second year in college, he began appearing naked in public to protest what he believed was the social repression of clothing. He was arrested by campus police for indecent exposure when he jogged naked near some dormitories. The county prosecutor refused to prosecute, concluding that nudity without lewd behavior was not illegal. Martinez began strolling around campus naked, citing philosophical reasons. The university then banned nudity on campus.

After college, Martinez began to manifest symptoms of mental illness and he spent much of the next ten years in halfway houses, psychiatric institutions, homeless, and jail. Martinez showed signs of schizophrenia and was prescribed medication, but with little improvement.

On May 18, 2006, Andrew Martinez lost his life to suicide, while in jail.



Andrew Martinez 
November 15, 1972 – May 18, 2006


Saturday, April 30, 2022

Vice-Admiral Robert FitzRoy RN


Vice-Admiral Robert FitzRoy RN was an English officer of the Royal Navy and a scientist. He achieved lasting fame as the captain of HMS Beagle during Charles Darwin's famous voyage, FitzRoy's second expedition to Tierra del Fuego and the Southern Cone.
FitzRoy was a pioneering meteorologist who made accurate daily weather predictions, which he called by a new name of his own invention: "forecasts". In 1854 he established what would later be called the Met Office, and created systems to get weather information to sailors and fishermen for their safety. He was an able surveyor and hydrographer. As Governor of New Zealand, serving from 1843 to 1845, he tried to protect the Maori from illegal land sales claimed by British settlers.
He continued to be esteemed and became the Governor of New Zealand. After his return to Britain, in September 1848, he was made superintendent of the Royal Naval Dockyards at Woolwich. In March 1849 he was given his final sea command, the screw frigate HMS Arrogant.
In 1850, FitzRoy retired from active service, partly due to ill health. The following year, in 1851, he was elected to the Royal Society with the support of 13 fellows, including Charles Darwin. 
FitzRoy funded most of his research and was not able to secure reimbursement from the government.
Dealing with frequest episodes of depression and expecting to soon be destitute, FitzRoy died by suicide on April 30, 1865. He was fifty nine years old.


Vice-Admiral Robert FitzRoy RN 
July 5, 1805 – April 30, 1865

Monday, April 18, 2022

Yu-ri Kim


Yu-ri Kim was a South Korean fashion model, who was active from late 2000s to early 2010s. During that time, she was considered one of the most promising models in the runway scene in South Korea.

Yu-ri Kim died by suicide on August 29, 1989. Kim was said to have complained about the extreme pressure to be thin in the modeling industry. It has also been suggested that she was suffering from profound grief. Two years prior to her death, her mother died of a heart attack, and a few months prior to her death, her father died of cancer. Yu-ri Kim was twenty one years old at the time of her death.


Yu-ri Kim 
August 29, 1989 – April 18, 2011


Sunday, April 17, 2022

Smell the Sea and Feel the Sky


Smell the sea and feel the Sky. 

Let your soul and spirit fly.

. - Van Morrison

I wonder sometimes, did my mother know that twenty years later this day would still leave its indelible mark on my heart? Did she know that twenty years later the memory would be still be held in the hands of my soul? Did my mother know that twenty years later, the sadness of this day would still quietly sit within my bones?

I wonder if she knew?

Each year, I can not believe that another has gone by. Her loss was yesterday. And also her loss was forever ago. The memory of my mother is always fresh in my mind. And yet the memory of my mother is always so distant, sometimes I wonder if she were ever here at all.

It is funny how the dichotomy of my sense of her loss can still dictate how I feel. It is often difficult for me to tend to this grief, when one moment I feel one way, and moments later I feel another.

Twenty years ago I was at a loss as to how to go on. Did she know, when we scattered her ashes at sea, that it would be the very same sea that would save me?

Did my mother know that Mary would drag me by the ear and insist that I step into the water in order to let it carry me?

Twenty years ago did my mother know that today I'd let Mary take me to the water again?

I wonder if my mother knew?

My mother could never swim. Water was too overwhelming and vast for her.

Today I will stand at the water's edge and remind her, and myself, that overwhelming and vast things can be healing too.

I believe that is why I was led to the ocean in the days after my mother died. I think her spirit was with me twenty years ago. I believe that in the days after my mother died, her hand was still in mine. Perhaps that is why I was led to the ocean, the same ocean where her ashes had been scattered, the same overwhelming, vast, and healing ocean.

Twenty years ago, I think my mother knew.



El Collie ~ November 4, 1947 ~ April 17, 2002




Friday, March 11, 2022

Dora de Houghton Carrington



Dora de Houghton Carrington was a British painter and decorative artist during the 1930s. She was commonly known simply by her surname. Though posthumously acclaimed, she was not well known as a painter during her lifetime, as she rarely exhibited and did not sign her work.

She was dear friends with the popular English writer Lytton Strachey.
When Strachey died of stomach cancer in January 1932, Carrington purported that she saw no purpose in a life without him. Dora de Houghton Carrington died by suicide two months later.



Dora de Houghton Carrington 
March 29, 1893 - March 11, 1932










Tuesday, February 22, 2022

Lee Eun-ju


Lee Eun-ju was a South Korean actress. She was the star of hit films including Taegukgi and The Scarlet Letter

After finding work as a model, she began to be offered roles in various TV dramas, including Start and KAIST. Her film debut came in 1999, when she played the younger sister in Park Chong-wan's award-winning feature Rainbow Trout. Her first lead role came as the title character in acclaimed director Hong Sang-soo's Virgin Stripped Bare by Her Bachelors (2000), where she gave one of the most memorable performances in all of Hong's films. Following this, she teamed with actor Lee Byung-hun in the 2001 hit film Bungee Jumping of Their Own, and also scored a hit opposite Cha Tae-hyun in the melodrama Lovers' Concerto.

Despite her success, her family says that Eun-ju suffered from crippling depression, On February 22, 2005, Lee Eun-ju died by suicide. She was twenty four years old.



Lee Eun-ju
December 22, 1980 – February 22, 2005

Thursday, February 17, 2022

Mindy McCready


Malinda (Mindy) Gayle McCready was an American country music singer. She recorded five albums. Her debut album, 1996's Ten Thousand Angels, was released on BNA Records and was certified 2× Platinum by the RIAA, while 1997's If I Don't Stay the Night was certified Gold.
While her career was in a decline at the end of her life, this was not her only difficulty. She also received significant media coverage regarding her troubled personal life and suicide attempts.
On February 17, 2013, Mindy McCready died by suicide. She was 37 years old.


Mindy McCready
November 30, 1975 – February 17, 2013

Friday, January 7, 2022

John Lee


Jonathan Henry "JonLee was a Welsh drummer. He was a member of Newport band The Darling Buds which underwent several name changes before the band signed to The Echo Label and changed their name to Feeder. Feeder experienced wide spread success.

Lee's family indicated that they felt that Jon was often happy, and they were surprised by his decision to take his life.


Jon Lee died by suicide on January 7, 2002. He was thirty three years old when he died.



Jonathan Henry "JonLee 
March 28, 1968 – January 7, 2002

Saturday, December 25, 2021

Vic Chesnutt


James Victor Chesnutt was an American singer-songwriter. Chesnutt released 17 albums during his career, including two produced by Michael Stipe. 
In 1996, Chesnutt was exposed to a wider audience with the release of the charity record Sweet Relief II: Gravity of the Situation, the proceeds from which went to the Sweet Relief Fund. The album consisted of Chesnutt covers by famous musicians including R.E.M., Madonna, The Smashing Pumpkins, and Soul Asylum, among others.
Injuries from a 1983 car accident left him partially paralyzed; he used a wheelchair and had limited use of his hands. Chesnutt suffered from depression throughout his life, and in the last years of his life he repeatedly told people that he was suicidal and/or had experienced failed attempts at suicide.

On Christmas day, 2009, James 'Vic' Chesnutt died by suicide. He was forty five years old.

James Victor Chesnutt 
November 12, 1964 – December 25, 2009

Sunday, December 5, 2021

Doug Hopkins


Douglas Owen "Doug" Hopkins was an American musician and songwriter. He co-founded the Gin Blossoms, a popular modern rock band of the early 1990s, with Richard Taylor. He was the band's lead guitarist and a principal songwriter.
Hopkins' writing credits included the hits "Hey Jealousy", "Found Out About You", "Hold Me Down," and "Lost Horizons".  Throughout his adult life he struggled with mental illness and alcoholism. Shortly after receiving a gold disc for "Hey Jealousy", Doug Hopkins died by suicide. He was thirty years old when he died.


Doug Hopkins
April 11, 1961 – December 5, 1993