GiaAllemand was an American actress, model, and reality television contestant. She was known for competing on two ABC reality shows, The Bachelor: On the Wings of Love and Bachelor Pad. In her 2010 appearance on "The Bachelor," she was the third-runner up on the show featuring love interest Jake Pavelka. Allemand and Pavelka remained friends after her stint on the show. Allemand died by suicide, on August 14, 2013. "We have lost an angel and a very dear friend," Pavelka said. Gia Allemand was twenty nine years old when she died.
Four years ago today, we lost Robin Williams to suicide. It was ten months after my own suicide attempt, and several friends called me to ask if I'd heard the news and if I was ok. So on that day, I wrote a few of my thoughts and posted them on my writing blog. (This blog which is dedicated to suicide prevention and awareness did not exist yet.) You can find what I wrote four years ago, by clicking on the blog page image, above.
A few notes:
Four years ago, it was really hard for me to write those thoughts down. In particular I was ashamed because I was referencing my own suicide attempt. Less than a year after I wrote the essay, I made it 'private' on the blog, so that no one could see it anymore. Today though, the post is public again. That is the way it will remain.
Since the time that I wrote that blog post, a few significant things have changed.
First, the number of lives lost to suicide annually in the United States is no longer nearing 40,000. That number has been increasing each year. Today, we are closer to 45,000 lives lost per year. Next, four years ago, suicide was the third leading cause of death among young people. This statistic has gotten worse. It is now the second leading cause of death. Finally, in that essay I said that I would not stop advocating. Except I did. Sort of. My association with my own suicide attempt got lost in the shuffle of life going on. I became someone different and I preferred to think that people didn't associate me with 'suicide' anymore. So, I got a lot more quiet. I liked the idea of forgetting. I'm different now. I joke with my friends that they should call me Suicide Sally, my life revolves so much around suicide education and outreach.
Four years ago today, we lost Robin Williams to suicide. I knew what a lot of the issues were then. I know a whole lot more now.
My heart was broken for all of us impacted by suicide loss then. My heart has been broken again and again by suicide loss, since then.
Today when I say that I will not stop advocating, I mean it.
Marilyn Monroe (born Norma Jeane Mortenson) was an American actress, model, and singer. Famous for playing 'blonde bombshell' characters, she became one of the most popular sex symbols of the 1950s. More than half a century later, she continues to be a major pop culture icon.
Monroe was one of the most marketable Hollywood stars of her generation. She won aGolden Globe for Best Actressfor her work inSome Like It Hot(1959), a critical and commercial success. Her last completed film was the dramaThe Misfits(1961).
Monroe struggled with substance abuse, depression, and anxiety. On August 5, 1962, Monroe died by suicide. Marilyn Monroe was 36 years old when she died.
People rise out of the ashes, because, at some point,
they are invested with a belief in the possibility of triumph
over seemingly impossible odds.
– Robert Downey Jr.
Often when there is a high profile celebrity relapse, or worse yet, when a celebrity loses their life to suicide, the media focus is on the hopelessness of mental illness and addiction. And it's true, we do have a long way to go. But, the situation is not hopeless.
When these things happen, advocates step up (myself included) and bemoan the state of mental health care in this country. We share disturbing statistics that speak to the critical need for more effective treatment for mental illness and addiction. There is a subset of people who find the courage to step forward and say: "I suffer from mental illness too! I suffer from addiction as well! It's awful."
All of the above voices are important, and we must continue with these efforts to make changes and to destigmatize issues having to do with mental health.
But sometimes we forget that when suicide and addiction have become headline news, those of us who struggle with these conditions are particularly rocked. When our role models suffer a relapse or lose their life to suicide, we are confronted with a frightening sense of hopelessness. Often the media is bombarding us with images and details we don't know how to process, and now through social media we experience a barrage of other people's opinions - not all of them supportive or kind.
What we are in need of is people willing to stand up and say: I have been in the same place as the celebrity, and a relapse or depressive episode does not have to mean the end.
In the face of desperate sadness and loss, we need heroes who have been there to step forward and remind us that we do make it through, as well.
Until we have better treatment modalities and until we know more about mental illness and addiction, we will continue to lose people. That is true. But I want to remind you that most of us survive. Please remember that. If you have suffered from addiction and mental illness, and are managing it well now ~ please take a moment to remind those who are still suffering that there is hope. If you have suffered from relapses or attempts, but are doing well now, please take a moment to let us know that relapses do not mean that you have failed and they do not mean that recovery is impossible. Please, take a moment to let people know - we survive.
I will start:
I have been where Demi Lovato is. I have suffered in similar ways and had relapses, and breakdowns, and have nearly lost my life to mental illness. I have been there.
For today though, I am ok. Today, I am glad to be here.
Today, I am a survivor.
If you are struggling with these same issues, and you are reading this, remember that you are a survivor too.
Diane Arbus was an American photographer. While she did some commercial work and photographed a few celebrities (such as Mae West, above) she was primarily known for photographs of marginalized people—dwarfs, giants, transgender people, nudists, circus performers—and others whose normality was perceived as unnatractive (or surreal).
As is so often the case, mental illness plagued other members of Arbus' family as well. Both she and her mother suffered from major depressive episodes throughout their life.
On July 26, 1971, Diane Arbus died by suicide. Sge left behind an ex-husband whom she was still close friends with, and two daughters. Arbus was 48 years old when she died.
it would one of helping others at their darkest times.
Kevin Briggs arrived early at the coffee shop where we'd agreed to meet, and when I got there, he was quietly sitting at a table. He wore reading glasses and was studiously researching something on an open laptop in front of him. At first, I wasn't sure it was him. I'd seen photos of him course, and I'd seen him on video. The thing is, in person he looked so unassuming.
In the dictionary, unassuming is defined as 'not pretentious or arrogant; modest.' In fact, this is the perfect description of the man who I would spend the next two hours speaking with. I was really honored to be able to speak to him, and I am equally honored to be able to share his story with you, now.
"I'm actually an introvert," Kevin told me when we began to talk.
Knowing his story, I would have found that hard to believe, had I not been talking to him in person. What his temperament and demeanor don't belie is the fact that he has saved hundreds of lives.
He may not wear a cape, but Kevin Briggs is a hero.
Kevin was raised Novato, California. Novato is in northern Marin County, in the San Francisco Bay Area. With a population less than 55,000, it is a relatively small town. Today, Kevin lives in Petaluma, a town that is only fifteen minutes away from where he grew up. Only slightly larger than Novato, Petaluma boasts a population of just under 60,000. Perhaps it is for these reasons that in many ways, Kevin has remained a small town boy at heart. He enjoys country music, Randy Travis is a particular favorite. He enjoys traveling but says that hot weather is not his favorite. More than anything, Kevin says spending time with his family and especially his two sons, is what means the most to him.
In 1981, Kevin joined the army. Afterward, he followed a career path into civilian law enforcement. He worked as a correctional officer at both Soledad and San Quention prisons. In 1990, he went on to join the California Highway Patrol. In this capacity, he frequently dealt with the aftermath of car crashes and he handled numerous other law enforcement calls. Undoubtedly he saved and changed lives while doing so.
However, supporting victims and witnesses of car crashes is not where his heroism lies. His heroism has more to do with the actual location where he worked. You see, Kevin Briggs patrolled the Golden Gate Bridge.
The Golden Gate Bridge opened to the public just over 80 years ago, in 1937. It spans a narrow 400-foot deep strait that opens up to San Francisco Bay. The bridge connects the San Francisco Peninsula with the southern end of Marin County.
The bridge is a worldwide tourist attraction, known for its extraordinary beauty and distinctive golden arches. Unlike the nearby San Francisco Bay Bridge, the Golden Gate Bridge has a public walkway that can be accessed by tourists and other visitors.
It is because of this easy access to the edge of the bridge, that it has another less beautiful reputation, as well. The Golden Gate Bridge has the second highest number of suicide jumps in the world. (Only the Nanjing Yangtze River Bridge in China has more recorded suicide related deaths.) Since its opening, the number of recorded deaths attributed to jumping from the Golden Gate Bridge is now nearing 2,000. However, the number is likely higher, as not all jumps are witnessed and many bodies are washed out to sea. It is impossible to know the actual number of people who have lost their life to suicide by jumping.
A fall from the bridge is extremely lethal. 98% of the people who jump, lose their life. It is for this reason that intervening during the time that a person is preparing for a jump, is critical. When Kevin Briggs began his career with the CHP, this critical component of saving people's lives was a part of his job.
In 1990, there wasn't a lot of suicide prevention training for officers. When Kevin began making his rounds on the Golden Gate Bridge, he only had his instincts to rely on when he was faced with a potential suicide. One thing that stood out about Kevin right from the beginning, was that his instincts were different than what one might assume.
He never felt compelled to yell at a suicidal person in order to try to stop them from what they were doing. He understood being physically aggressive in an effort to 'grab a person' wasn't going to work. He also knew that telling a person that they they were being selfish or were hurting others wasn't going to help the situation, either.
When I asked Kevin how it was he knew what to do, he didn't describe a thought process to me. Instead, he referred to something much more personal. He said that when he would confront a person who was close to jumping from the bridge, he would look into their eyes, and what he saw was pain. He knew he didn't want to increase the pain. He didn't want to lecture the person or scare them. Instead, he recognized that what a suicidal person needed most in that moment, was for someone to care.
Despite the machismo that is often associated with police officers, Kevin says he has always been a sensitive person. His own personal history has also allowed him to understand how painful life circumstances can be. He is very open about the fact that he has faced challenges. He dealt with a cancer diagnosis when he was still in his twenties. He's gone through a divorce. He has faced mental health challenges of his own, including depression and PTSD.
Over the course of his career, Kevin Briggs has encouraged literally hundreds of people to not follow through with their plans to jump from the bridge. One particularly powerful story involves a man who shared Kevin's same first name. Kevin Berthia was despondent and had already climbed over the railing, when Kevin Briggs got to him.
These are the words that Kevin Briggs spoke. These are the words that began to save a life:
"I know you must be in tremendous pain. If you want to talk, I m here to listen."
Earlier, I mentioned that Kevin Briggs is a hero. It is true. Undoubtedly, his superpower is empathy.
Kevin Briggs and Kevin Berthia at the north tower of the Golden Gate Bridge in 2005.
Kevin has advice for those who are trying to support a person who is despairing, and the lives he has saved are proof positive that he is on the right track. "Listen to understand," he tells us all.
Kevin says that he spent far less time talking than listening. He asked questions instead of dispensing advice. He understood that on a human level, we all want to feel a connection. If the person on the other side of the railing was not wearing a jacket, Kevin would forgo his jacket as well. They'd be cold together, as they spoke. If there was anything he could do so that the person he was talking to felt more comfortable, he would do it. He knew that telling a person that 'everything was going to work out,' might not be the best tactic. In that critical time when someone's life is on the line, trying to convince them that their despair is unreasonable, is not helpful.
However, encouraging a person who is on the verge of giving up to remember that they have a life that they can continue living, does make a difference. Instinctually, he understood that encouraging a person to consider the possibility of a future, had the power to save lives. What else did Kevin often ask the people he spoke to?
"I'd ask them what their plans were, for tomorrow."
Kevin says he was always careful not to try to 'cheer a person up' or to tell them that 'everything was going to be ok.' He knew enough about life to know that sometimes things aren't ok, and sometimes problems don't resolve themselves right away. He didn't want to give a false reassurance. The suicidal person wasn't going to respond to that kind of feedback.
During his time with the CHP, Kevin talked to hundreds of suicidal people, and only two of them ended up taking their lives. It turns out that his instincts were spot on, and we can all learn something from his efforts.
'People who are experiencing suicidal thoughts feel especially alone in their experience. If we can help them to know that we genuinely care about them and their situation, we may be able to convince them that their life matters. This is the essence of the ethic of care in action. Empathic responses, in the form of validating another’s experience, can also save lives.' In other words, we shouldn't be telling the suicidal person that we know exactly what is going to 'fix' their problems, and we shouldn't be telling them that their problems aren't as bad as they think. What a suicidal person needs to hear is that we can see that they are in pain, and that we care.
Because Kevin has been witness to more than one person jumping from the bridge, he understands first hand the importance of compassion for those who are left behind. He has a unique understanding of what is important when loved ones are confronted with the tragedy of losing someone to suicide. When I asked him about this, he began by telling me what he thought was the most important thing for loss survivors to know. "Do not blame yourself or others. This is no one's fault."
Kevin says he has seen the greatest support come from families that have made a purposeful decision not to blame each other.
Perhaps part of why he is able to comprehend the grief endured by survivors of suicide loss, is the fact that Kevin lost his own grandfather to suicide. Despite the fact that he never met his grandfather, he knows that the impact of a suicide in the family reverberates long after the loss has occurred.
"It's a lifelong process," he says, of managing the grief.
Post Note: A number of measures are in place to discourage people from jumping from the Golden Gate Bridge, including telephone hotlines and regular patrols by emergency personnel and bridge workers. In 2014 the Bridge's directors approved a proposal for a net below the bridge's deck. The net is expected to be completed by the year 2021.
Chester Bennington was an American singer, songwriter, and actor. He was best known as the lead singer for the rock band Linkin Park, which sold over 65 million records worldwide during his lifetime. Bennington was considered one of the top rock vocalists of the 2000s.
Chester was open about being a survivor of childhood sexual abuse and bullying by peers. In his adult years, he was an addict and alcoholic, though primarily sober in the last years of his life.
On July 20, 2017, Chester Bennington died by suicide. He left behind a wife and six children. He was forty one years old when he died.
Hermanus "Herman" Broodwas a Dutch musician who achieved commercial success in the 1970s and 1980s, and was called "the greatest and only Dutch rock 'n' roll star". Later in life he also started a successful career as a painter. Brood struggled with alcoholism and drug addiction throughout his adult years and was despondent over the fact that he couldn't achieve sobriety. On July 11, 2001, Herman Brood died by suicide. He was fifty four years old when he died.